An Introduction

For those of you that know me well, you recognize Starfyre as my gaming alias. I have been known to my online friends as Jade Starfyre for so long that the name is stuck. I have set aside Jade for something a little closer to my heart. My closest and truest friends call me James. However, recently, while reading, I came across a James referred to as Jem. I have always loved that name. I used to have a cute little cat by the same name. I have recently taken the name unto myself as something more simple, more feminine and, in my opinion, more beautiful than Jamie or James. Whether you call me Jamie, James, Jade, Star, Starfyre or Jem, I am me. All the complexities that make me who I am are about to be shared and spilled onto these pages. This blog is for me and perhaps for those of you wishing to know what makes me tick. Or maybe you are bored and want something free to read to pass the time.

I've had so much in my mind lately. I have been going through so much for a long time and I have lost so many crucial little pieces of myself along the way. It's time to start putting those pieces back together. I need to continue my art, my crafts. I need to do it more often and to let it heal me as it has in the past. I want to have my music back too. It's been dormant inside for sometime now but the urge is screaming so loud that there is no ignoring it any longer. I need instruments back in my house! I am not sure how I am going to go about doing this, as I gave up my bass (before actually learning it) saying I would replace it with the acoustic guitar I truly wanted. My keyboards were left behind in Ontario too (so much was left behind there). And my voice! Oh to be able to use it properly again. It only gets used these days when I sing in my car or alone to myself. I miss singing in a group of people. I miss singing loudly surrounded by others that embrace the release of those endorphins. I miss being hidden amongst the others, where my fear doesn't seem to control me so much. I have also developed the urge to learn the violin. I have all this ability inside, but no money to buy the instruments or perhaps lessons if I get stuck along the way. This blog is my way of writing again. It's time to let it out. It's time to let ME out.

It's the new year. It's 2013. I turn 30 this year. It's a new beginning. It's an awakening. My rebirth is happening. Care to join me on this journey?

Welcome to Soliloquy by Starfyre!